About the Peacock, I had a conversation with Sue Pond , It's another part of my life that surprises me the most through people I had met. Is there something about me that suggest that I am a peacock as my dear Ailene Patricia Treadaway said...d in her comments. or something I have done that one of my best sister Crystal Haller Morabito want me to share with her in her comments.
Sophie's World Journeys Of The Lost Soul
Sophie's World Journeys Of The Lost Soul
chapter "In The Haze Of Life" Page 81. In 2004 I wrote this passage
Between days, weeks, and months, I had only remembered good days
because I made use of them to spend time with my family, going to rugby
matches, gardening, and painting my house. Writing about my life was
always a way of venting out loud to invisible audience. I did what I could
do weather permitting and a combination of how my body felt. Life seemed
to have been teaching me a lesson, and I was one that would not sit and
listen. I was the one that refused the normal theories of life. Somehow I had
learnt to negotiate or agree to disagree if that had made me feel better.
At war with myself was one of those things I spend time doing? I had no
idea how I got time to even think of my behaviors. I found myself thinking,
“Some habits are hard to change.” One thing that I had not figured out
in all this was a habit that I have, whether it is a disease or not. Despite
the illness I live with, I am the biggest flirt in the world. I was aware that,
this kind of behavior in a person like me is considered abnormal. I had
questioned this and considered changing, but like the virus I live with, I
could not shake it off. In between days I was feeling good I had polished
myself like a female peacock, behave like one something I had loved.
Learning to live the new life I had been daydreaming as what normal
people accepts me was scary. It felt like what I was looking for needed to
be a public announcement. Yet my behavior would be judged if I was to
be in a public arena. Well, I had to carry on as all the other behaviors I
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had accumulated come to surface. Somehow I continued to justify why these
behaviors are in me.
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